"Now I’m back home, negotiating a life that resembles my old life, but is very different. I haven’t felt this awkward in my own skin since I was a teenager. I spent most of my life in a we, and now, suddenly, it’s just me. Whoever that is." https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/widows-walk/202610/who-am-i-minus-my-spouse